I have been thinking a lot about (and experiencing) sorrow the last few days. I have seen those around me that have had to come to grips with their sins and plead for forgiveness from those they have hurt. Then my own temptations come back to haunt me and my desires become self-seeking instead of Christ-centered. I am sorrowful because of the traps into which I allow myself to fall. I am sorrowful because I have hurt others with my selfish choices. I am sorrowful especially because it is against the One who lovingly created me. I am not sorrowful because I have been found out or caught. In an effort to live with more integrity, I am trying to make the grey areas of my life translucent to those around me. I don't want to admit my every single fault but this journey is stretching me to do so. I must admit that I am NOT THERE YET. My sorrow is not just expressed in apologetic words, but it is taking form in repentant actions. I am NOT THERE YET. I am cleaning house. I am seeking forgiveness and anticipating change.