I am trying to kill myself. No, I am not trying to kill my physical body. I am trying to put to death more and more of my old man that Satan still likes to resurrect. I am under extreme conviction right now to sever any connection. I am wrestling. Unfortunately I am still trying to find a middle ground. No compromise can be accepted though. God's Word must be the authoritative judge. Satan, did you hear that! I love my Lord. He has already delivered me from the eternal consequences of my willful sins. He has offered my grace even though I know I do not deserve it. I know that the One that lives within me is greater than any force that is at work in this fallen world. I am NOT THERE YET... I can win though through His strength.