I see people that radiate Christ. I see others who I know are Christians but their relationship with Christ is kept vague. I am wondering if my light is radiant or dim. Does my life exhibit Christ to others? Is my life a pleasing aroma to Christ or does it stink of sin? I read accounts of people who have encountered Christ and their lives are drastically changed. Mine has experienced a change, but it has been a gradual process. I am not blaming God. I have been slow to surrender my life to His control. I am NOT THERE YET, and every day I am reminded how much I am still sitting on the throne of my life. I want to be bold, but I am timid. I want to be proclaim His message loud in my life, but I am unfortunately ashamed when pressured by the eyes of this watching world. He did not save me to be afraid. He is with me in the public arena of life. God has filled me with His Spirit to seal me until the day He returns for me. I am NOT THERE YET.